Saturdays make me pensive and musical

I sometimes toy with the idea of breaking up with the Boyf. Although I love him and feel deeply connected to him, I occassionally long for something new. This feeling isn't really concrete but more fleeting and transient. When I really think about it, I would never trade the emotional intimacy we have for anything. I would also dread "dating".

A song by Final Fantasy (I love this "band" so much) perfectly delineates the trials of contemporary dating. It may seem pessimistic, but I think it is mostly apt. Despite our loneliness, we find a million ways to complicate relationships and further our insecurities. When I hear this song I am happy that I have the Boyf and all the people that I love in my life and I also think that humans are very stupid, sad and small animals that waste loads of energy and time on garbage. The song is called Arctic Circle (click to listen). Here are the lyrics:

She drives a little white car to the seminar on Modern Romance
Possible possible ideas for a date include... a shooting range
And her chest is full to bursting with thoughts of an evening
Nobody nobody nobody will ever know her longing
She's got a heart that will never melt
She's got a heart that will never melt

Shields up! Shields up! Bar the door, and keep your dukes up!
Tell lies, tell dirty lies, tell diggory lies, until you're lying in his bed

He has a tendency, a tendency to fall for shining eyes and baby fat
But the quarry don't share his taste for Anne McCaffrey
And he dresses alright but the conversation is wrong, all wrong
Nobody nobody nobody will ever know his longing
He's got a heart that will never melt
He's got a heart that will never melt

Shields up! Shields up! Bar the door, and keep your dukes up!
Tell lies, tell diggory lies, tell chiggery lies, until you're lying in his bed

Now you can endure the fear now you can endure the hell
Now you can endure the lies now you can endure the fear